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Do you still remember?

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Do you still remember what it is to be in love?

Or did you forget how it is to feel you're about to die and to be reborn? To have that sweat running down your body, to feel the scent of fear. To taste adrenaline. What is its flavor, again?

That feeling of being brainless. You start to lose concentration. You think about your crush. You feel the crush on your chest. You begin to feel the pressure. Suddenly, you're driven away from your skills, you give up a little of your own independence, you're unable to rock, to hunt. You can only act and react under the command of his words.

The agitation of being tested, the willing to become selected. A man, among millions. To win the lottery.

At this point, you're ready to give all you've got. But, suddenly, you start to think about your own exposure. You fear dominance. You're worried about being a burden. You often try to avoid that person, just to make sure everything is fine as in you're not being a stubborn.

And then, you just begin to feel lighter. Your muscles put you to dance. You're willing to sing out loud, even if your voice looks weird, even if you don't clearly know the entire lyrics. You feel ready to play, and to be played. All the energy that was given away comes back, in a way you can't describe the feeling it gives you. Maybe flattered?

Do you still remember what it's like?

Feeling old yet?
This may be shitposting, but human feelings are as weird as a lot of human relations. When I begin to think about it, I feel scared somehow. I'm not immune against it.

I do have all those kinds of feelings, and I don't regret any of it. But, for a hunter like me, it is hard to stand on a situation where you can't read the future, you can't predict, all you can do is to hold expectations and give your all for that passion.

Just to let you know. This is also an amazing feeling, there's nothing more worthsome than feeling the challenge, that is how life is.
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